My friend Keri and I have a weekly check in session where we keep each other accountable for what we do with our time. She's a Lawyer by profession but she is also an author which is how we connected. She was the legal assistant assigned to my department when I was a Typist. I was in the middle of writing my first book and she had just completed hers. She is such an amazing human being and its so great to have people around you that make you better just by being themselves. Initially we started doing it to keep her on track with her pending book but I had to thank her cause she really made me realize some things about myself in the process.

I remember my first ever release, I was so terrified. I would have been happy with just one person saying it wasn't complete garbage and to get the point where I want this song out so bad for you hear is such a great feeling. I know I did my best and I know its really good. "So You Said" is all about not letting people stand in your way when it comes to your version of excellence. I appreciate everyone so much and there will be lots of exclusive content. If you haven't yet subscribe and don't forget to follow on facebook, twitter and instagram. 

So she starts calling the ones she knows and calls her mom's name. I tell her "baby girl I know we call mommy Stacy but it's actually Anastasia we just call her Stacy for short" She sits there super quiet for a minute and then says are you sure. I'm like yeah for real that's her name. She puts her hands on her head and screams "Oh my God we're rich!" Her grandmother looks at me with her mouth open and I'm like "sweetie you okay" She's says "yes auntie but you don't know what this means. If her name is Anastasia we're filthy rich and we can move to the United American States and buy whatever we want! " Where the hell do they get this stuff. Is there some book we don't know about? No way the mind of a 6 year old is this random so I looked it up and she's actually on to something cause that name does have roots in affluence so I guess she's smarter than all of us - go figure.  

I start drowning in the what if's because sometimes you just don't know and I'd rather swing and miss than never play the game. So I decide to submit but I use my latest single instead of the others that were "more professional" because its me and I am really proud of the project - for the most part because I did it on my own. They listen to it and message me back and their feedback is; we need you to really sing this is (talk singing) you know give us some more energy. I took it as constructive criticism for like a minute then I got bummed out for five minutes and then I was in a bad mood I was like - what if I'm not good enough, what if nothing ever comes of this. It was ....... a thing. I go onto my my radio airplay account the next day and boom another new fan and guess which song. That was some much needed perspective. It made me remember music is subjective and yeah I wanna get signed and get noticed and blah blah blah but I also don't want to be something and someone I'm not. Why would I use an upscale pop beat with high end vocals for a song about feeling dark and broken. In my opinion if you're going to bring energy to that you need to seriously bring it or you'll lose the essence of the song.


The lot of us decide we're going to throw a party but all of us like different things so we decide every person will take one turn. Jaiya who is 6 is in love with Michael Jackson. She told me every time she sees him steam comes out of her ears and she sees hearts bahahahaha I wanted to laugh so hard but I didn't. I said okay you get one Michael Jackson song. Next Jaeden who is 8 decides he wants some Soca so he puts in Machel Montano. Ethan is only 2 and he's not allowed to control anything cause all he does is touch so I put in some Sesame Street. Rolls around to my turn and I'm thinking I need an epic song so I go through my recommendations and I see She's So Mean from Matchbox 20 and that party lit on FIRE. We almost broke the bed down - it has a sick beat.

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